Wednesday, October 25, 2006

To sir, with love

To sir, with love…

“I will not go. This is not happening. I am not going to be a doctor. Doctors lead dull, insipid lives. I want more zing. I am carved to be a journalist or better still, an actor”. Typical ‘Apoorva ranting’ before she joined medicine. My father and mother couldn’t take it anymore. They didn’t understand it much either. What was this now? Last minute jitters about commitment to a particular course of life or genuine case of interest lying somewhere else? Career counselors were consulted, literary figures and theatre personalities spoken to. All of them were as confused about my true calling as my parents. So the immediate solution was to give medical college a shot for a year and then decide.
I fussed about joining on the first day of the welcome for the new batch in the college. The thoughts “what the hell am I doing here?” “I want to run away someplace” kept drifting through my mind. First day of dissection- he walked in. I looked again, “Dad?! What is he doing here”? Then I realized my mistake; this was Dr A V K. professor of anatomy. He smiled warmly and began, “We will be reading Cunningham manual volume 1. Apoorva will read for all of us.” Shy and out of place that I was feeling, I was immediately startled. “How does he know my name”? “Probably read my badge”. I began reading for our table. Then he began to do what he is probably born to do… he spoke. We stood enthralled. My scientific mind kicked in. Something awoke inside me. That something which had been put to sleep for 3 months… I was asking questions, he answered with eloquence to my gawky, unsure and what I thought were stupid questions. He asked us if we were bored, and we screamed in protest ‘NO!’ my friend beside me even added in an undertone “its very interesting”. And here he was, only telling us about the difference between inversion-eversion and pronation-supination of the foot. Little did we know what a genius we had for a teacher!
For the months that followed, this man was the father figure of every single student. He rapidly graduated from being plain warm to godly. His discussions of the subject, right from the palm’s intricate anatomy to the gross structures of the brain, his way of questioning and answering, his questions that achieved their objective each time. He made us think. He made us read and he made us understand the beauty of the human body. All students, whether interested in anatomy or not clamored for his attention, which he readily gave. No student was or will ever leave from his presence, without a smile. Every student under him has named only him as his favorite teacher. Every student ever to come will name him such. He is an open book, ready to reveal every aspect about himself. Every parent knew “the anatomy professor AVK”. The phenomenon that grips every 1st year SDM college student.
‘Apoorva ranting” had not disappeared completely. Who better than A V K sir in who I could confide? He looked at me weeping silently and said “ you are only confused and sensitive, please do not leave medicine. You have chosen the right profession. Believe me. ” He asked me to read one of the mother’s compositions. I read it with full sincerity and thanked him. That day, like so many others after talking to him, I came back home much lighter.
Over the year, A V K sir has helped me in millions of ways knowingly or sometimes unknowingly. Be it the time he gave me something he owned, to the time he cured of my ‘incurable awe’ of older people. I used to be uneasily tongue tied with elders. True I used to talk, but used to be uneasy. He cured me of it. He taught me how to be calm, how to be spiritual, how to pray, how to lead a humble life. He endears himself to his students in a way that is overwhelming. A genius at his work, he plays the harmonica and sketches in a matter of minutes. His anatomy diagrams always get a collective gasp of awe. Its an honour to be his student, to learn from him so many things.
As much as he has revealed about himself, I cannot claim to know him fully at all. I have but barely scratched the surface.
My friend always tells me I look like his daughter. Maybe I do. After all he looks like my father. Didn’t I confuse him for my father long ago on that fateful first day?

And oh yes, I want to be a doctor.

Tuesday, October 10, 2006


You know those sudden moments of happiness that give you a high? Those endorphin floods that make your happiness levels surge upwards? That’s exactly what is happening to me right now after a rough period of feeling bored and lonely.
I had got a forwarded e-mail some days ago stating the best moments of life. Things like “ thinking of someone you love”
“ Listening to the rain outside”
“ Eating chocolates” etc… Well… as for me? I can tell you I have a best moment in life each time I have a fulfilling conversation with someone dear to me. My mom and I finished watching ‘house of flying daggers’ (which is bad! By the way ;)) and were just talking. Both of us had a lot of time to spare, so I started filling her in about my friends. My mom LOVES kids and is always sympathetic towards our problems unlike so many that are ‘amused’ and ‘patronizing’. I went on and on and found that we were really connecting. We were talking about so many things- student politics, peer pressure, ego tiffs between friends… things like that. Boy! She was all ears. She gave me such insights about me concerning my behavior with my friends that I didn’t know myself. You should've seen the way we were bonding! It was soo soo good! After this conversation, I started thinking how great it is to really *share* something with someone as close as a mom. I am back to my happy self again. HUGGGGGGSSS to my mumma!
I hadn’t talked to her like this since so many days… feel light now. Sigh…

Friday, October 06, 2006

Didn't happen

What I wanted to do a few days ago and couldn’t do …

Hang out with a friend who I’ve met only once. You know, go to a disc (all dressed up), have a tangy fruit punch, laugh, and talk about people and things like that. Couldn’t do it. Don’t ask me why if you don’t want me to morph into a human hosepipe.

Host a party!! Call ALL friends old and new. Transform my house into a lounge bar. You know the living room to a dance floor, the dining place to well… the dining place. Dance the tango… catch up with everyone. Sigh… CANT!!! Everyone else has exams. I am bawling now… L

I really wanted these things to happen. I still play the would-have been scenes in my head over and over again. Deepika, Anusha, Rachana, Priya, Zafar, Nitin, Vijeta, Sneha, Chann, Veer, Rutu and Priya of course and a million others would love me playing host to the reunion I am sure all of them yearn for. I really miss them!

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

derob- a spur of the moment post

I am bored…bored…derob… that’s bored read backwards… want to go party with a bunch of friends. Maybe I’ll throw a party to celebrate boredom. But I am bored of the preparations. That’ll be tiring. And I am already tired of the boredom. Party anyone?
I’ll get the punch.

Listening to ‘wind of change’… bored… switched to “o paape pyar karke” (remix) pyar karke pachtaaya!!! Oh cool, didn’t know the remedy for boredom was a click away…only my dance partner Mr. Rahul bose is missing.
Oh NOW goodbye boredom, 'beedi jalaile' is playing…. Saif bhai looks ‘haute’.
Ahem... “Sorry” to the prudes.

Sunidhi Chauhan…. I bow to you… aapke sur *lagte* hain. What a gift it is to wake up an inactive soul with your charged voice..